Time Heals

I decided to wait and work on my website during class, therefore I have some free time today. I need it. It's been a rough 24 hours and my little bit of optimism for today is the fact that I'm just going to relax today. I read some astronomy already, but my projects will have to wait for another day. Today, I need time to recover. Other than that, I found a good movie on the Lifetime website called Still Little Voices. But that's about it. My words of wisdom seem to fail me now. I just keep thinking, "time heals all wounds." But how long does that take? I guess it depends on how deep the wound is. So for now it's small talk and waiting. I'm hoping tomorrow is better. I need tomorrow to be better.

To love is to risk. To risk is to live. To live is to feel. To feel is to love. Take a risk, live your life, and love like you'll never be hurt.

::Edit (10:53pm)::

I really miss him. And it's nights like these when I just want to curl up next to him, lay my head over his heart and just hold him close. I want him to hold me and just let me cry. But realistically, since he's not here, I hope he calls tomorrow morning. I would give anything just to hear his voice and hear him say he loves me. I want to hear his laughter. Realistically, that may not happen and if that's the case. I'll take a deep breath, text him, and get through another day, because each day is a day closer to being with him again. There are ups, downs, twists and turns and it's not easy, but it's definitely worthwhile. And even at my lowest of lows, I know he loves me, just as I love him.

This brings me to my favorite quote:

"Now here you must leave all distrust behind; let all your cowardice die on this spot."

-Dante Alighieri

It's a quote that has brought me great strength and has reminded me that I need to face my fears. I can't be afraid all the time and I need to remember to trust those dear to me, but most of all remember to trust in myself. Thinking about it again now, I believe this should be included in wedding ceremonies. Not in the reference of walking into Hell, but in the reference of here is where you need to make that leap of faith. The leap that will test your strength and trust in each other. You must be brave to trust someone with your whole heart and if you're promising to love someone for forever, trust is a must. It's easier to love when you know they'll be there to catch you when you fall.

So on my down days, when I'm missing him, I need to remember to be strong, trust that things will be okay because I know that the love he and I share is something special.

Quote of the Day:

"You don't even know what green soap is."

"It's the stuff you use when you tattoo, you put it on the paper towel you use to wipe as you go."

"Holy shit..."

"I paid attention when you taught me"

-me and Jon