Stepping Back to Breathe

He really is wonderful. I don't really know how else to explain it. This week has been a long week for the both of us and it seems like both of us were incredibly stressed with wedding plans. (I'm sure we still are) But today I finally told him to relax and just breathe. We can't do much now until my parents let us know our budget so it's just a waiting game. He's been diligently working on our website, which looks adorable by the way, and is desperately wanting to get started on the adventure that is planning a wedding! It makes me happy that he wants to be so involved! At the same time though it makes it more complicated. Haha. Him being involved means asking for his opinions and making sure we come to compromises instead of just choosing. At least I'm being fair about it! Just hearing how excited he is about it brings a huge smile to my face. I know he loves me so much and it's apparent and I can feel it. Even from 615 miles away. I really do love him.

Quote of the Day:

"It feels really awkward calling my 5 year old son a bachelor..."
-Martin Roth - philosophy professor

Size 0=Anorexia? Fuck that noise!

In my advertising class this morning we were doing our show and tell for our ads that we found. One girl got up and showed her Nike ad about how being fit and muscular is beautiful and not to be ashamed of it. I thought it was a great ad and could relate to it at least at one point in my life, back when I did sports. But then we got into a class discussion about it and how society portrays women and how some companies are trying to portray the "your body is beautiful no matter what" image now. My teacher (whom I respect, look up to, and think is an awesome professor) completely surprised me by saying something to the effect that all size 0 girls are either anorexic or are that small by some drastic measures. That really hit me hard. And was slightly offensive.

Although my recent pair of shorts that I just purchased are a size 2, they are still big on me in the waist. I mainly bought them in that size for the length. I'm not a huge fan of booty shorts. But I'm sure I could have fit into the 0 as well. But back in March, when my mother and I were shopping for some dress clothes for me to wear to interviews, at Express I had to get a 00 for the pants to fit me right. And they fit. Now, if you looked through my pants drawer and looked at the sizes they range from 00-4 and 24-25 (European sizes). This is depending on brand and year of purchase. Since all of us women know, every brand is different and the sizes vary pretty much year to year depending on how society views women and how they change. If women are getting larger, the sizes get bigger but the number stays the same. Just as, if women are getting smaller, the numbers stay the same but the sizes of those numbers change. But back to my point.

I can technically be called a size 0. I have proof that I fit into 0's. However, I am not anorexic, bulimic, I love to eat, I eat a lot of junk food when you compare it to the amount of healthy food I eat, I don't exercise anymore (even though I weighed more when I was doing sports), and I eat like 5 times a day. So who is she to say that all size 0's are that way due to anorexia or other drastic measures? I will admit that for my height and build I'm just a little under normal weight. And also, I understand that most models are a good 3-7 inches taller than me so their "normal" should technically be a bit higher than mine. But still my point is. Not all size 0 people have eating disorders.

It seriously offends me when people make comments about me being too skinny as if it's a bad thing. Like when people say "oh, you're so skinny" in a condescending tone. Or when people flat out ask me if I have an eating disorder (yes, it's happened). Why can't people realize that not all skinny people have eating disorders? And you know what, if you have ever been called fat in an offensive way, that's how I feel when people say I'm too skinny. It hurts. So the next time you start to judge someone based on how they look, don't. And if you don't, watch what you say at least.

End of rant.

My Last First Day...and Second

Haha so I've had my first two days of classes, which means first meeting of each class! I'm not overwhelmed quite yet! I mean I do have reading to do which is normal. Since I haven't really picked any of it up yet, I can't really get a feel for how long it will actually take me. I guess we'll have to wait and see! As of right now I'm not stressed about it too much and right now things seem manageable. But that could all change. I think it will take a week or two into the semester to see how the work flow will really end up. The classes I was dreading don't seem as horrible as I thought. But again....that can change.

As far as the wedding is concerned, we're still in the process of trying to figure out a budget and book the venue. Luckily, our date is still open so that makes me a little less nervous. Jon has started working on our website and we're in the process of picking out save-the-dates. And it's all downhill from there.

I should probably get to doing my homework now. Fun!...not really.

Quote of the Day:

"Geography is boring."
-Ramesh Dhussa, my human geography professor

The End=A New Beginning

It's the last few hours of my last summer vacation ever. It's weird thinking about that. Tomorrow is my last first day of a brand new school year. It's exciting but sad all at the same time. I'm excited to get back into the swing of things! And as much as I hate homework, it feels like a safe place. It's what I know. And to be honest, I think I actually enjoy it, well maybe it's more the sense of accomplishment of completing it that I enjoy. I love the hustle and bustle of campus. Sunny days on campus where everyone is outside, people are laying on the grass doing homework, and people are playing catch, soccer, or frisbee in Helmick Commons. Seeing the hordes of freshmen girls giggling and texing like crazy all talking about rush week coming up. New classes and seeing what is actually in store for the next few months of my life. Having to plan and manage time again, not involving when my next show comes on and when I have to work. Running into people you haven't seen since last school year. Ahhhh it's a new school year and I am excited!

I don't know what I'm going to do when next August rolls around and there's no school to look forward to. No buying school supplies. No class schedules. No hustle and bustle of campus. Instead, next year at this time I'll hopefully be making the final plans to my wedding! Way different from school but EVEN MORE exciting! It will be a new kind of beginning and I cannot wait! But for now it's back to the smell of new books, number 2 pencils, lectures, and homework.

Bring on the new school year!

Quote of the Day:

"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end."

I'm back and I'm a whole new woman!

I got back in town last night! Sad...*sigh* But I am happy to say that my trip to Ohio went amazingly! Jon proposed on the 8th, the Sunday after I arrived, and of course I said yes! hehe! That was his big surprise! lol He was originally going to do this huge elaborate thing the next weekend but he couldn't wait any longer! He's so adorable! I didn't know if i would have been able to wait either! lol But I am so excited and we've already started the planning process! I finally get to plan my real wedding with the man I love! Yay! But this next year is going to be crazy! First I gotta get through the school year so I can graduate! Then I move and then the wedding! YAY! haha but anyways back to my trip! The Monday after he proposed, he was able to get off work at his normal time so we went out to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory (my favorite!) for a romantic night out! It was fantastic! The rest of the week was spent gathering wedding ideas with his mom, errands, waiting for Jon to get off work (his schedule was all over the place) and just waiting for the weekend! Saturday we took his parents out to The Cheesecake Factory for a nice lunch and some shopping which was fun! Then Jon felt sick :-( but Sunday he was better and we were starting to make some real decisions! Monday and Tuesday were long days, I did Jon's laundry lol and started making important phone calls to try and get our venue! (still working on that lol) And well Wednesday sucked. Big time. That was the hardest goodbye yet :-( and I think they'll get harder into the winter. But as spring rolls around and it gets closer to May, they won't be as bad. *fingers crossed* For now it's time to keep busy which won't be hard.

School starts Monday, I'll be working on the weekends on top of it. I now have a wedding to plan! Things will be crazy and hopefully time will fly by! So here I go, let's do this!

Quote of the Day:

"Did you guys have friendship bracelets?" - Me
"Oh, it was almost to that point." - Doree (one of my managers)